Its amazing to sit back and watch my family in motion. I just get giddy when I see them growing, learning, and smiling. Even when the day to day tasks seem to be too much to handle, like running in and out of Calvin's room to give him his paci while he is trying to nap, all the while I am playing in the basement with Lucas in the tunnels and fort we built for this coming winter. Oh did I forget to tell you about being a homemaker? Not only do these 2 lovely boys require 90% of my time, somehow I manage to keep my house in working order. Dishes, vacuum, laundry, tripping over hot wheels, dinner, groceries, picking up tiny army men, and much more. Yes, there are days I just break down and feel like Im gonna go insane but most days I feel like Im living the dream.
It hasn't been an easy road to get to this point of joy. Finding out we were pregnant was actually a pretty challenging time. This literally effected every aspect of my life. Because Lucas' labor was traumatic, I had a very hard time wanting and accepting I had to deliver another baby. I had much counsel, prayer, and encouragement during this time.
What ultimately changed my perspective on the delivery to come was Jesus. My sweet doula Kim Farr, gave me a pregnancy and delivery bible study. I had never heard of that before but was and am so thankful that there is one. What the study boiled down to was... Do your REALLY trust God. He is the creator of all things. He is sovereign, good, trustworthy, loving, and faithful. DO I REALLY TRUST GOD AND HIS PLANS? This was huge. I was filled with peace knowing he is in full control of every single detail of my life. Because of this I chose to go all natural for Calvin's delivery as well. (I will share more in a future post about Lucas' delivery and a post on Calvin's delivery)
I honestly feel like God transformed my heart. He grew my faith, gave me joy, peace, hope, and a heart of worship. I love my boys and am blessed to call them mine. I cant wait to see what the future holds for my family.
We had a family date and capture this pic. My favorite picture of my pregnancy with Calvin.
Shortly after Calvin was born this is were Lucas and I spent alot of our time. In the backyard playing. He looks so cute in this hat!
Calvin is only 2months old in this picture but is wearing 6-9 months clothes! How do I birth boys instead of babies.
Calvin was 6weeks old when we had a extended family vacation to Florida. It was a challenging trip but so fun!
Until next post... have a great day!
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